Let me begin by saying I should be working. But I need to take a break to ask HOW DO PEOPLE DO THIS?! Working full time and being a mom is HARD! And especially when you have a job that is as demanding as being a lawyer. I have NO TIME to do anything but work and spend an hour or so with Cullen each day of the week. To say this is overwhelming is an understatement.
Don't get me wrong. I feel unbelievably blessed that I have both of my dream jobs--attorney and mom. Really, I am living the dream, quite literally. But one of friends was so right when she said these first few years will be incredibly difficult because you will always feel guilty--guilty when you are with your baby because you aren't working and guilty when you're working because you're not with your baby. SO. TRUE.
And don't even get me started about how woefully behind I am in every other aspect of my life. Take for example thank you cards. Because of some other issues one of my baby showers was right about the time I started back to work. I have had NO TIME for thank you cards and I am terribly embarrassed. AND I just discovered a STACK of thank you cards that I never sent out from even before that. Oh goodness. And I can't send them now because they won't make sense. I literally get sick to my stomach when I think about it. Every time I walk by the office I feel sick. I can't even go in there now.
And I can't remember the last time I made it to the gym...
OK, enough griping. Back to work...
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